bro (may 25, 2020)

and for the first time, i’m not scared about loving too loud

because i finally understand that my affection’s been falling on deaf ears;

there was always this deep, blue, crushing worry that my feelings would never be reciprocated,

or that they’d be mocked,

and the (close) confirmation of these anxieties sits strange and comforting in my stomach like hot chocolate.

and i’m even getting good at this one-way mirror of a friendship;

there’s something less vulnerable about spilling your guts to glass.